There are these things in life. Small things; insignificant in the long run—but colossal in the present. Logic says one thing, impulse, the other. Sometimes you shut down your mind for a while. But eventually, it catches up. Impulse is fun and happy. Logic is consequence. Finding the middle-ground is a balancing act in heels on a tight-rope. And I never much was one for heels.
It isn’t about right and wrong—things are never really that easy. It’s more about what you want, and what you…should want. It’s like they say, one man’s right, is another man’s left. Wait, do they say that? I think I’ve heard it somewhere…can’t be entirely sure, really. Point is, when you think you’re doing the right thing, are you really just doing it because it’s the only option you have left? Given the choice, would you rather listen to the demonic alter ego on your left shoulder in high heels and fur? Is doing the right thing a conscious choice or is it just another one of the chains society has strapped on to your chest? Some consider being impulsive a good thing, while others insist it just leads to ruin. The thing about impulse (other than it losing all meaning due to being repeated about a million times in this paragraph) is that it leads to you doing some really, really stupid things: a fight sometimes, harsh words, shirked responsibilities…it’s everything the rational part of you wants to deny. Because we’re all told it’s wrong. But the other thing about impulse is that it’s pure. It’s all you. That may be scary depending on the things you’ve done on an impulse and chalked up to a momentary lapse in judgement, but it is pure. It’s not the result of what you’ve been taught and told over the years. It’s not influential. Yes, like I said, one does do some very, very ill-advised things on an impulse, but we do it because we want to. Because we shut down all of the external voices and listen, for once, to our own. It doesn’t always do us good. But, on the b-right side, we learn something. We learn what not to do.
Right and wrong. Logic and impulse. It’s a balancing act. But it’s your life and you decide where the scales tip.